Since I haven’t written anything here in so long, I decided to do some mini updates on life. They’ll be super brief because I don’t know if I have that much to say these days about personal things.
School is finally coming to a close. It has been an unbearably tough year with everything else going on from housing problems and family problems. I can’t wait for exams to come and go and for life to move beyond this. Deep down, I love school. But the structure of it and the pressure from it make me often forget about that love for learning. I don’t think I’m learning anymore. I’m not analyzing things the way I should. I think I’m simply getting through the material and hoping enough of it sinks into my head. There’s so many things I would do differently could I get the chance to go back and redo all of this. But I can’t and I’m forced to look to the future.
I don’t know how likely grad school is in my future. I’ll attempt to apply and see where it takes me but it’s unlikely that I’ll pursue it at this time. I think I consider it only because it seems to be what everyone else is doing. I do want to return to school again in the future and pursue another degree. Do it on my terms and not pressure myself into ensuring that I do it in hopes of getting a job someday. Hopefully I’ll have the money for it. I want to go to school elsewhere too, overseas maybe in europe. It’ll be a nice cultural experience. Just gotta get going on learning those multiple languages.
Other than that, I don’t have much else to say about school. Another year has come and gone and one more year to go until I get my degree. Bittersweet as that moment will commemorate a lot in my life, a moment I never thought I’d actually reach…